I imagine saying yes to you
and our life starting then and there in that little room

I imagine walking away when you turned me down the first time
before you had the chance to break me

I imagine you loving me back
a life without regrets
without the last hug playing in my mind on a loop

I imagine you braver, bolder
following your heart like a steady thread

Instead I watched her kiss another boyfriend in Italy
and when I looked back at him, his infidelity was still a thorn
constant reminder: trust was a mistake.

I wish for you to stop hiding behind silence
not use it as a shield
telling yourself the distance makes it hurt less